Friday was the make or break point with the trainer. I am 3 weeks away from the show and it was now or never to decide if I would come in where I wanted to be. I knew my chances were slim and had already convinced myself that choosing another date and delaying everything would give me more time. So after stripping down, snapping a few pics, seeing the progress and reviewing the results….we decided it wasn’t my time yet. It wasn’t a tough decision to make. Like I said before, I want the chance to compete…not just the chance to get on stage. I walked out of the trainer’s office with a weight off my shoulder. The stress of getting ready in three weeks was gone. WC was ready. He was beyond ready and could walk on stage in a few days if needed. So the next three weeks will be about keeping him focused and continuing to prep.
The next show for me is likely in September….an additional 8 weeks on top of the original 16. All of the morning cardio sessions I thought were going to come to an end, the strict eating, the inability to go out for a meal, and the disciplined training routines will continue. Trying to grasp all of that made for a tough day mentally on Friday. How bad did I want this? Could I sacrifice the time? How do I deal with distractions along the way? Am I even cut out for this? Lots of questions with very few answers swirled around me on Friday during the day.
Friday evening was different. I got a taste of normalcy and what I was missing. I had several moments where I was ready to give it all up. It was the easy road out of town. But I didn’t. I realized that night that I set out to accomplish something I had never considered before. This was why I had left the former life behind. I want to try new things, have experiences that most don’t or can’t, and push myself harder than I ever have. Life happens… and when will I get this chance again. Was I really willing to throw away the goal because 8 more weeks was too long? I realized that night that I had to finish this….because I wanted to.
No comments:
Post a Comment